I know I said that with my big boy begining school, feeling tired and pregnant and the business of the autumnn season before me that I would not be able to post as regularly as I did during the summer. I never expected to be away from the computer for this long though! I am happy to report that most of what has been keeping me away has been wonderful things; time spent with family and friends, cooking and enjoying my most favourite season. However, no one could have expected what the universe decided to throw my way last week...
Over the summer, I remember telling you about my wonderful small town and about how the mamas that live near by were friendly and our children played, etc. As you can imagine, even in the best of situations, friends can offend other friends, some hold resentments about past tiff's between thier children {which, ofcourse, the children have long since forgotten about}. I wish I could say that everyone had better things to do than to hold resentments and anger...but stereotypes about women being cliquey and mean do not exist for no reason, and this past week I found myself on the receiving end of some "mama drama" via email, in it's most prominant form.
After the initial days of crying, hurt and trying to figure out how I could put my house up for sale and move away, I somehow managed to put things into some kind of perspective. The awkwardness and hurt are still there, but I am doing my best to move on and make new friendships by initiating other playdates with other mamas that I might not have reached out to before. Living in a small town has it's benefits and disadvantages. A week later, I am disappointed that I allowed the situation to get to me in such a way that I all but lost an entire week of doing the things that I enjoy so much.
I have written this post 2x now, then deleted it, not even wanting to call any more attention to the drama of last week. Instead I will publish this one, then move directly onto celebrating these days leading up to Halloween. I'll do my best to post what we fit into these next few days and then will hopefully find my rhythm as we move into November...
Thanks for being patient with me!
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:-( I'm a little late on this- but OH! SUCKY!!!! Good job moving forward though. I just moved to a small town and really really hope I can avoid any/all such drama. Here's hoping!!! :-) Take care!
Posted by: Mountain NewBee | November 14, 2009 at 06:12 PM